The story of the swollen eyes...

25th May, 2008

A planned trip to london was cancelled..Uhuh, sgt keciwa tak dapat bershop2 di london..I had an imaginary list of things to hunt on that day. Tetapi awal2 pagi dapat message letting me know, semuanya tak sehat..So, a friend from Oxford came to visit..not to visit me, he was more excited to visit the Fitzwilliam Museum in Cambridge! oh yes, also H&M. They dont have this retail shop in Oxford, so he bought himself some shirts. I bought a turqoise santai handbag for myself. Murah aja..... ;) We visited the 461 year old King's Chapel in Kings College too..Never failed to mesmerize its visitors...

Petang itu, meet up with 'the girls' and ate spaghetti at K. Zetty's house. K.Lin cooked ayam kari..Lazzat...and the desert, wah so irresistable - Meringue nest, chopped strawberry, topped with whipped cream..Nyum..nyum..Sambil tu tgk final AF..Stacy menang...

Yay..suke..suke...Mind you, twas our de-stressing day ;)

26th May, 2008

Mata berair, mata merah, mata bengkak, vision kabur, light sensitive, body balancing instable = stayed in the dark for 2 damn days! Went to pharmacy (cuz medical practice were close), and was given 'brolene', an eye drop for mild bacterial infections. Ya rite, it wasn't mild, I figured after 2 days of stagnant devastating condition. Oleh kerana terlalu bengkak mata, tak nampak jalan ke pharmacy. Tapi I bersengkang mata untuk cycle to town! At that time, I can still open my eyes. During the night, it worsen!! I cant expose my eyes to the light at all. So, no laptop, no tv, no outdoor activities! Basically, I slept most hours. Sampai dah tak larat nak tidur.

Monday morning, I woke up at 5am and felt hungry. So pergi kitchen to goreng telur. Kununnyer nak makan sandwich je. Then I terpikir, why not I masak for lunch terus, sementara takde orang berjaga kan? Makanya...i pun sarung mata lalat i (sunglass), masuk kitchen again n goreng ikan! Sambil tu masak nasi n potong tomatoes..Wah..i was blinded remember..So semuanya kene raba2 je barang2 kt dapur tu. Frying the salmon was the most challenging part, cuz I can't make sure if it's cooked or not! Redah aja dong...


When I almost done, there was a guy tibe2 plak masuk dapur..What the heaven, kan! (polite sket) What is he doing berjaga this early?? Being aware that I looked ridiculous in shades, at 5am in the kitchen, I automatically declared

Me : oh sorry, i have an eye infection
- apekehal?? mamat tu tak cakap ape pun??

White guy : oh..ok, take care of urself

haih...sopan betul orang malaysia ni...silap tempat yer kawan2......


Anwyayy...later that evening, K.Lin n K. Zetty came to visit me..How nice...They brought pizza, garlic bread n muschroom soup. Oh yes, sainsburry's doghnut as well..We ate sambil tgk tv. But I cant enjoy it very much as I my vision has worsened by then. Kesian tetamu2 kene layan diri sendiri cuz at one point I have to lie down to ease the pain..Tapi terharu bangat ada pelawat...sob..sob..thanks girls.. ~hugs~ wished they can stay longer, but K.Zetty has to fly off to france the next day n its getting late anyway..so terpaksa la mereka balik.


This is how bad it was...ooh, scary or wat!

Insaf seketika....Of all the disabilities in the world, losing my eyesight is the most horrifying to me. Ive always prayed prayed prayed for that NOT to happen. Hmmm..walaupun my eyes selalu sembap mcm panda (that's wat Kenn used to call me), i cant ask for more...

27th May, 2008

I woke up early again..of course, takde bende nak buat..So I called the medical practice sharp at 8.30am to make an appointment with the GP. I have to call a few times, cuz no one answered!Hellow..8.30 tak bukak lagi ker? Finally...apointment nya at 9.40! I was wondering how in the world can I cycle to the GP? So I decided to take the cab...thank goodness jgk K.Lin willing to temankan that morning. I asked her bcuz I takut I tak nmpak jalan balik. Thanks K.Lin! ~hugs~

I didnt get to see my personal GP, but any doctors would do. Luckily he said, this is normal for contact lense wearers, rarely impose major issues. Lega hati chek....He gave me a precription of an antibiotic called chloramphenicol..bende ni hari2 I guna kat lab! Kalau tau, boley jer I pipette (titis) dalam mata sendiri..LOL

my first prescription in england

After the check up, we went to the pharmacy to amik my ubat. I wonder, kalau sakit lagi teruk, do they still expect patients to walk all the way to the pharmacy to get the medicines? Memang tak logikk (version kak karena in Ezora tv3..LOL)

Then, I ajak K.Lin breakfast kat COSTA jap..Treat her hot chocolate and plain butter croissant..Happy sket la ni...tp still exhausted..See..

Kak Lin muka Happy....

My muka sadis...

Hmm..Friday smells good...

*hope weekend kali ini lebih productive*

I'm off....

Pengantin or pengapit?

Wuhuu... a good friend of mine during ASASI days, Cik Aliaa' called from M'sia and we talked for more than an hour! She is getting married at the end of this year and she wants me to be the bridesmaid / pengapit! wahaaa..of course la i said yes! we've been good friends since our zaman "jahiliah" di ASASI dulu, along with Cik Farah and Cik Arbak (me, aliaa n farah spent more time together). And now, one of us will tie the knot, I cant be happier for her.

Yes, we were the group of naughty ones who came late to tutorials (lectures datang on time i think), copy friend's tutorials and did not do much revision for the tests. Sukar mau percaya kalau di fikirkan balik. There's more..we used to lepak at the "cafe luar" in kolej ke-sebelas until after 10pm, order nasi goreng cina/pataya/paprik with air carrot susu/tembikai susu. These are my choices of menu for every night! Borak2 and gossiping on who's hot and who's hooking with who. Oh, dunia itu sangat seronok! Cafe luar was precisely the place to meet other Asasian. It's located between the girl's and the boy's college! Kirenye, laluan antarabangsa lah

Wahaa..you can see any couples walking together or who drives to college (ehem2)..So many things can be the Hot story for the night. Tak banyak kerisauan time tu..All is bout having FUN. Indeed, I had a blast during my ASASI. The only drawback was we didn't have much "fun" in the academic part of that life (which is supposed to be the whole point of attending the uni) Gosh, takyah cakap la..i completed my ASASi with below 3.0 pointer! Sadis! My close friends's results?? Not far from that figure of course... ;p

*I reckon names shouldn't be P&Co., as all of us finally, graduated with flying colours, "cemerlang, gemilang and terbilang" for our Bachelor degree..
very much to everyone's surprise! LOL WE DID IT, GIRLS! Congratulations to us! Alhamdulillah insaf sudaa...

Panjang sangat kalau nak cerita pasal ASASI. It was only for a year, but twas really really GWEAT! Anyway, me and Aliaa recaped on all these and came back to discuss about the pengapit thingy. I am excited for myself as much as for her! Huhuu So I suggested both of us go for spa treatment in Bangi when I come back (last days with bakal pengantin lah kunun) and she said we'll have to plan a trip to Jalan Tar to cari kain for baju pengapit erkks?? it has to suit my skin colour la..Aliaa putih, any colours wud suit her fine. For me, kene pilih wisely..hm..sape yg nak kawen ni?? ;P

We went on about the style of the baju, kasut, and how she wants a tall pengapit so that the pengapit boley pegang payung tinggi2! cehs..orang suruhan rupenyer..all in all, the discussion focussed more on how I would look on that day, NOT her...ahaks..takpe2..as long as i tak over-shadow you keh aliaa..cant wait for the day. Sekarang kene focus my MPhil! Malas nak emo...tapi I LURRVE UM....hmph!

As for UNISEL, i spent 3 wonderful years there and made lifetime friends (I hope). Cik Nik Rahimah nak kawen jgk next month (congrats angah!), and Cik Winnie akan engage end of this month (hope dapat attend ur wedding day). I am truely excited, thrilled and wish their ceremonies go well...kalau i dapat balik, bley jadi korang nyer pengapit jgk kn?? wihii..promosi diri plak

okie..until next entry...

oh yes, my eyes have totally recovered! ;)

Praise be to Allah

wah...syukur kepada Tuhan yang maha Esa..penglihatan ku telah pulih semula.......

FYI, i got myself an eye infection since Sunday..on both eyes!! It is an acute conjuctivits which causes the eyes to become watery, an in my case extreeeemely sensitive to light. Sunlight is still bearable, but laptop screen and television was very painful to look at. I cant even glare at both my favourite world inventions! So, berhari2 duduk di dalam gelap...TOTAL DARK! No kidding..

As for now, sudah improve sedikit...Still blinking my eyes as I'm writing this. Has to type very fast! Agak2je menekan keyboard. Wuhuu..Should wait till they recover fully, sebab tak berapa elok to tense the eyes by exposing them to light! I think! However, juga tak sanggup bersabar setelah 4 hari tak check emails n so on..ish2..sabar jehan..

Hope esok fully recover...At last, dapat tgk tv malamni..also, hopefully lusa dapat ke lab..bosan alagapas ni...

Lots to story morey...

*wink* or blink.... LOL

Yay...lepas satu perkara

oopsssieee..majalah MANGGA pose! "Miss J, tak rela digelar perempuan murahan" hahah

Location : Lab

Time: 4pm (UK time)

Mental status : Obviously relaxed

Huhu sangatlah gumbira (alhamdulillah) cuz I just finished with my first presentation ever here. I stayed quite late last night to make some changes to my presentation slides. After discussing with Gabi (postdoc) yesterday evening, I realized there were some extra informations should be included...Also, the gene analysis was a bit confusing and too long. Had to spend a few hours to summarize all and make sense out of it. Basically had to cut down the words and compact-kan all the data...Fenin2....

Anyway, I have to say I didnt have time to practise properly. So, pagi ni bangun, redah jer...I was thinking, if any questions asked, I have read the papers, so the answer should be somewhere in my brain..kan! huhu But for nextime it's better to be fully prepared la..Cuz this is just pre-presentation before the real viva! Uish..cuakss

Supervisor said "i am quite impressed..you did a lot of study on research background"

So..happy la jgk..But personally, I think there's plenty of room for improvement. Sure, its my first time..so ade 2nd chance..The first time is always most difficult. Over time, you can picture the whole concept in mind. So, dun worry if you feel like the blur-riest person on earth! THAT's normal. But of course, it's not an excuse to sit back and wait for things to come around, work towards it..

Honestly, the first TWO months in cambridge I was like "what the hell is going on here?" When my supervisor went on explaining about the project, I was like "erm....wat exactly do you mean?" (dengan muka kureng yakin) this came out like...SEJUTA kali!! kehkeh

Well..thinking back, that's was just the first phase before you get familiar with your project...the "stupid phase" they call it..hihiii

Received loads of feedback from the group members..makanya, akan buat the corrections....

wihii....more work, but I cant wait to have the 2nd presentation when my thesis chapters are done! (long way to go babe...)

Anywayyy, after presentation we finally went to pizza hut! Mr. Math has been persuading us to have lunch there soo many times! Yes..so many times! We didnt' have that much time during lunch hour to try out new places. Obviously unlike in Malaysia, Seksyen 7 Shah Alam tu je ade berlambak restaurant to try out. Hm...

Oleh kerana hatiku senang today, pergi jgk lah....vegetarian pizza that is...tp sedap jgk..it was a buffet "all you can eat" for 5 pounds only..Kenyang n mulelah mengantuk...goshh..

statisfied face..ahaks...

ok, back to lab.......

Hidup dan matiku untuk bacitracin...

huhu..am extremely busy this week... Preparing for a presentation, coming up this thursday...it's on my precious antibiotic called bacitracin of course...hence, the title! My slides tak siap lg.....argh..tensi..tensi...

check out the mutants ive created! ngeheeee.......ok back to work...just a short break!

geli tak? huhu

My babies...ewww....

and of course, self-pose...huhuhu

Simply Saturdayyy

Morning people...Saturday morning mmg best! But the weather is not impressive today. I had roughly planned in my mind last night on how to spend my saturday. Was thinking of

* waking up early (i did)
* check emails (a habit that does no good, pagi2 takdenye org email)
* Do laundry n kemas2 bilik- tak byk baju so malas nk turun ke laundry!
* then go to city centre and do some shopping - Tak berjaya...

Shop for i dunnno wat! Am seriously in no mood to shop for clothes..I'm looking for new handbags though. But just not in d mood. Anywayy, bcuz d weather is terrible, I am still in d room until now! I just need one good activity to relax..Am thinking of spa...hm..bestnyer kalau kt malaysia, bley pi spa wif ibu n my hot sisters...

Yesterday I received quite a bad news, but was not bother to melayan perasaan itu. Was fasting too..from 3pagi to 8.52 malam..lame gilos kn! Hungry and bad news was just not a good associatiaon! So, stayed in the lab until 8.30pm then went to Kak Ina's place to have spaghetti with the girls..Yummy! Thanks kak ina..

I will continue with another useful tips in the next entry. For now, want to watch the tv.. I lurve saturdays cuz they also have series of classic movies..the one that has gorgeous women of very small waists, tall, tanned and handsome men (with light brown eyes that is) and dazzling-shiny marilyn monroe blonde hair, or like my all time favourite jaclyn smith's dark brown permed hair! (my mum used to have that kinda of hair too..hehe so retro!) Also, I like the idea that they have songs in the movie. If u noticed, movie lame2 semua ada sesi nyanyi..macam cerita P. Ramlee and hindustan. Why sekarang dh tak diteruskn ye? Except for hindustan movies la..Hm..I adore classical / musical films...bley berangan once the movie has finished! ;p

My all time favourite musical film is "The Sound of Music" casted by the wonderful Julie Andrew. It is a bout a woman who leaves an Austrian convent to become a governess to a Naval officer widower. When I was small after first time watching this movie,I instantly fell in love with the songs and adoring Fraulein Maria (Julie Andrew) and Captain Von Trap (the hero) In fact, I can still sing ALL the songs in the movie until today.
~the hills are alive..with the sound of music...~

Anywayy..my mum said Julie Andrew was already dead. So I ingatkn, too bad la..but when the "The princess Diaries" casted by Anne Hathaway was filmed few years ago, I was so surprised to see my childhood idol, Julie Andrew to be in the show! Apeda...ibu salah bagi info..huhu..
They had the musical show in London, or izit stil going on? I must watch nextime.

They filmed the film in Salzburg, Austria..very beautiful place, So when my mum went there 2 years ago (i think!), she bought me a shirt there. Very simple shirt, tapi "Sound of Music" is written on it..How thoughtful..Hm..watch for urself..It's good for your kids..Well, I used to watch it on and on again when I was a kid! tula kuat berangan..erm.....but seriously, it;s good for your kids' english! Watch one of ma favourite songs......

Have a lovely weeknd ppl..

Wish I can be Julie Andrew....and married to Captain Von Trap?? Ok, too demanding! Enjoy!

Bella..bella

Sedey2..baru lepas nangis tengok Bella, last episode..Malas nk cerita pnjang, watch for urself..I officially vote Elly Mazlein sebagai pelakon drama terbaik! hehe..yes, I do watch malay drama thru the internet! And..i watch Bella daily from the first episode! Huhu makes me feel like home....

I do have a tv in my room, so I mengikuti cerita tempatan juger..cume tak besh! English dramas not to attractive, I'll end up watching those dramas we have back home; Desperate Housewives, CSI, Grey's Anatomy, House, Heroes, Smallville...incase u r wondering, I dont watch all of this everydayyy..gilos, kerja banyak! The only shows originated from Britain that I realy realy like are these....

• The Apprentice (Sir Alan instead of Donald Trump)
• Britain's got talent (it's like british idol..n yes, Simon Cowell is in there! wihiii)
• How to Look Good Naked by Gok Wan (serius shoot..they get naked in the middle of Oxford Street!) Really exciting to watch..haharrr

I'm Off

Punting in cambridge

Helluu..two days ago my research group has decided to have a group outing. It's been very beautiful lately. After 5 months of being in the "freezer", the sun finally comes out and do its thing. Barulah rasa bahagia sikit..the sun shines almost like back home, but the temperature can never outbid ours. Terbukti, the blissful spring is not for long, when today it becomes a bit chilly at cloudy at 6pm. A week before, jam 8pm pun stil terang benderang..Besh!

Anywayyyy, we still went out to have a break from being 'imprisoned' in the lab..So first we went for punting. Same like naik gondola in venice! Punting in Cambridge is the best way to explore this ancient city and is like a trip through time. We didnt hire anyone to punt for us, instead each of us tried it ourselves..The stick is quite heavy, but for me it was easy to navigate. Mr. Mathias n H-J had the worst navigation! Har har.. And they were skeptical to let me punt at first cuz they say I'm too thin (it requires quite a force to push the boat forward) Jangan tak tauuu...aku lagi terer! It's all about technique.. Cewah..anyway, let the pictures do the talking...enjoy..

p/s: sape2 dtg cambridge, this activity is a MUST...il bring you around. Need a lil more practise though ;0)

pose..jgn tak pose.....

ade style tak? penattt tauuu........

haiyak..ade pokoklah pulak..cabaran harus diredah ;)

After punting, kami singgah minum di The Eagle Pub. This is a famous pub where Watson and Crick first discovered the DNA!! Menarik bukan? Mau menang jadi nobel laureatte, silelah datang ke pub ini untuk dapatkan aura...and yes of course, I drank the latest black beer by Guiness! wakakaka (gelak jahat) Hot chocolate that is... ;)



I'm sure you guys wonder how it looks like inside! I was excited myself too..N yes, mereka pelik melihat gadis bertudung masuk pub...Obviously, I don't care!


Was a GWEAT DAY!!

It's a matter of choice

Wrote this last night, but too sleepy to figure out how to post the clip! Hehe..Sangatlah tak celiks IT..So..I simply post it OK..

haiya tak ley tdo..this syndrome normally appears when I have plenty of work! So just want to post another entry..huahua...who says we can only post 1 entry per day?? Suka-suki la

Depicted from own comments on Lord Leandre's blog

Cant agree more with you kenn (the 13th may part. I love history btw..hehe)

unfortunately not everyone thinks like u do..or like i do..we CAN create equity and equality, IF everyone (as in every living person) in Malaysia tidak mementingkan diri sendri..

I have to say, that isss jusss impossible....too bad..wat we can do is bertolak ansur..ppl will still make a big fuss out some issues, but the world can never be perfect

As for my own experience, I grew up with many-many chinese friends..growing up in bandar Kuantan, the ratio of malay to chinese in my school was almost 1:1..As for the indian friends, I live in Klang la dey..need I say more? huhu..malay, chinese, indian..good frens close frens..they are very dear to my heart..and nothing change since then!

So, 13th May CAN be last written as just history, but some people just chose no too..let us not be one of them..

Sebagai penutup ini malam, jus wanna share this clip..it's been widely advertised in Malaysia tv, tapi orang sini mane la dapat tengok until I read utusan online. Sweet, cute but most importantly d message is deep..Sila nonton n learn from it..I dah tgk berjuta kali..huhu

nite2 ppl

An ideal supervisor? No such thing..

Haluu...

Today balik dr lab around 7pm, then singgah sainsburry's. Beli ikan for the first time in cambridge nih! After 6 months! ish3..sadis sungguh..After receiving all the instant perencahs from ibu (via prof/k.lin), rase bersemangat je nk masak. the truth is, its much easier..I bought salmon (was never my favourite! euww), but got not much choice to tell u d truth..Kalau ade game "namekan sepuluh jenis ikan", i'll shout out 3 answers only; salmon, cod n haddock! Itu yang plg fofular kt sini....masak sweet sour........Delicouss..seriusly! ;p but,credit goes to MAGGI! I'm bad at cooking, clueless at times..but one thing my mom thought me well..if nak serve orang makan, present it well...Thanks to her, I learned a few tricks for presentable dishes..Then again, my friends jarang suruh I masak..hihi when they want to stay hungry, they'll ring n ask me to cook ;p

should take d pic before attack..this is after dinner

Anywayy..I just want to update a list that I created during the early days in cambridge. It's about "How an ideal supervisor should be"...the following were listed after ovbserving my current supervisor (sv) also in tribute to my previous supervisors..Also it's worth to mention that I am the first student for my current sv, which makes me her mini "personal experiment". If I excel..that would be her first achievement..

Trust me, not everyone can be a good supervisor as well as not everyone can handle the stress to be the first student ever existed in the lab! - That's me, if ur wondering..

Anywayyy, here goes the list :

*list ini diwujudkan pada 16th January 2008 sebagai reference dan panduan utk myself pada masa akan datang..apabila Jehan bergelar seorang supervisorrrrr....... ;)

1) Know my project well..inside out..history n future..tersurat tersirat!

• Impossible! You won't know everything...basically, be clear on the importance of it

2) Be able to explain the project to ur student

• Well, I bet every sv will start by doing this. But it takes a great skill indeed to describe it in the most understandable way.
• So, start wif b/ground of d project, wat has been done then where it leads to

3) Plan /outline the workscope to give to student..which part of the project should d student concentrate on, what's the final target and so on...dont blabber about the whole project n what the other students will do, brief them on these topics, but make it clear what exactly they'll be working on! you dont want them to be LOST, do you...?

4) Create timeline..

• long term : to get the general idea on when to finish off
• short term : weekly that is! very important! You can take a peek at my weekly plans..they just save the day! You'll never get lost on what to do today or have no idea what to do the next morning...Keep you on track, enable to foresee future damage! har har
• Many thanks to Dr. Roseline Ooi Wai Ling..my supervisor in SDTC, 2005. It was ridicolous at first, but ever since I left this place, I carry on practising this useful habit ;)

5) Guide student hints on what to begin with..which subject of the project he/she should start to understand first

• suggest any journals n books would be the right way to go about it

6) Have lab meetings to update work progress

7) Demonstrate at least once! (a must!!) Then let student work independently...

8) Trust them, DO NOT under estimate their ability! (kalau ikut piawaian cambridge, you have nothing to worry, they've made it there for a reason!) But generally, show some faith in them. (students are aware of their supervisor's expectations, and strive hard to impress them - that's ntaurale)

Well..a lot more I have in mind. For now, these r most crucial for me. Feel free to add on.....I only see it from a student's perspective.....

I'm off!

Ketinggalan...!

Hm..got a very gud news today that another friend of mine will be engaged very soon (cant mention her name, I am supposed to be surprised when she breaks the news to me next week)

Before this, two of my closest frens dah pun announced their majlis pertunangan. Miss Winie's engagemnet wil be end of May..This event adalah antara salah satu majlis yg sangat terkilan untuk ketinggalan.. =( Sorry win, jehan belikan prezen je lah k (end of year that is)..Another person is Miss Alia, my best fren in Pusat Asasi Sains, who will be engaged to Mr. Eppy end of July and insyaAllah will tie the knot end of dis year..Yay..that means, I'll b able to attend ur big day then..

I am so happy for the three of you..but partly sedih tak dapat attend ur engagements...I Lurrve the planning and brainstorming on the what-to-wear or what gifts to buy part..Inilah die, d disadvantage of studying abroad, u'll miss ur frens' engagemnets, even worse their weddings, cant be in d hospital when ur first nephew was born, the kenduri akikah and many2 more! However, the only scariest thing that I always pray not to happen, is to lose one of my family members while I'm away..(don't want to even think about it)...God Bless them..

Anyway..today balik lab lewat giler..around 9.10pm..

hah! sape suruh datang lab lambat! (9.50 am)..huhu so almost 12 hours in the lab..serve me rite! Was quite content wif today's achievement though..cewah! tapi meraba-raba dalam kegelapan bila nak balik tadi. Apparently, cambridge keeps its electricity utilization as minimum as possible! Dahlah i ni rabun! Huhu See..muke penat!

Ok..dats it for now..better hit d sack..I am so sleepy...It's been a long day..so will tomorrow..Nite ppl!

A comeback..

Helluuu Malaysia!

This is my first writing in a blog (apart from lab report and academically related, btw) after more than a year! Malass sekali! For those who know me, they'll know the existence of my previous blog in friendster(still available but not active). The last entry was on 15th Sept, 2006! Gosh, ages ago...after a long time though, today I decided to read my own postings in friendster....Weird enough, I felt like they were written by someone else! The words and expressions I used then were soo, how to say.."zaman mude-mudi"...Kelakar juga baca own writing. There were few postings about me feeling upset, but for me to visualize myself going thru the same scenario as described just unimaginable. Perhaps I'm not a good writer..perhaps I have grown up so much now that I see things differently.

Anyway, that funny feeling made me want to start writing all over again. It would be interesting to read it again 20 years from now, what my current thoughts are. Also, today I am leading a life as a postgraduate (as if 3 years of bachelor not enuff!) currently doing my MPhil, and most importantly I'm living this student life far awwwayyy from home. A place where about 5 months ago felt truely alien to me, the weather was just too horrible, the food are tasteless and the culture is to the extremeeee different from what I'm used to. Well, not all in a bad way though. Being me, although aware of the difficulties and challenges in my life, I prefer to direct my thoughts and energy on the positive side of most things. Thus, I feel grateful being who I am today, being where I am and for what I've gained (and redha for what I have lost).

Having said that, I wish to to share soo many things with my dearest friends back home and so I can update them with my activities in this blog. Also, there are plenty of valuable experience I feel worth sharing with those out there, especially my juniors who show interest in making their way towards higher education (post-bachelor that is). Well, I dont know everything! But there are certainly some topics I can talk about ^-^ The people I've made friends with from accross the world (very interesting ppl) and fellow malaysians who keep my sanity firm and my apetite back to normal. All these are simply to bring you through the exceptionally exciting and not any less competitive life in cambridge....

So, why not just continue with the same blog in friendster? For a start, I enjoy decorating my own page! No fun in friendster's blog. I am not a great deisgner, but I get bored easily so have to find the right look for me. For those who know me, I change my laptop's desktop background almost everyday! Hehe And update my YM status message regularly! Anywayyyyy, for this blog its a combination of dark grey page background and soft colours like pink, yellow and light blue. I keep it simple and kemas, but took me few hours to organize them! And who knows when I will change the whole background again. Oh please no....dont have that much time. Journals ade banyak giler nk bace! Also, in here I can view my whole postings even the earliest ones. The only disadvantage is m friends will not receive notifications once my blog is updated. (anybody can figure how to update them, just like in Friendster). But its no biggy...do bookmark this page ok kawan2. tak kuasa i nak update u all manually.

Hm..So there you go.....Oh yes, fyi, at present moment I m extremely busy with thesis writing. Papers are berteraburing atas katil and on my desk! But as before, when I'm bored and the thesis writing leads me to mind blockage, I'll drop by and say something. When I'm feeling wacky I might post a few entries in one day! Berpenyakit la pulak kan...

Just to summarize it all, this is just a blog dengan coretan harian I..if you are interested to read about d local (malaysia) political issues and some thoughtful remarks about them, you can visit a friend's blog..(kenny boy, what say u?) Or if you want to indulge in a fancy-wancy-wealthy-fashionable lifestyle, I can direct to a few (thanks to kak zetty for introducing em and made me spent 10 minutes everyday reading thru them). Or perhaps wonder what malaysian celebs wrote in their blogs, I have some favourites that I visit occasionally too. The point is, let's be open, let's be aware of what's going on around you, and let's share things you think are worthwhile and might do good to others.

As for now, let me get back to my work. Terlebih sudah....Asta La Vista bebeh!